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The Passing Of A Child (A Mothers Pain)-A Mothers Healing

It’s been 16yrs…16yrs!! Since I lost my son….but I gained an ANGEL! I often sit back and wonder..what if? What if you never passed on? How tall would you be now? Who would you favor? What sport would you dominate? Or would you have been more artistic? All questions simply unanswered!

That’s what use to haunt me at night! You know the moments when you are all alone and your mind begins to race…and you open your mouth to scream but nothing comes out! The pain that sears through your heart like iron that’s white hot! That at the pure touch things are burnt unrecognizable! That’s what unanswered questions are like!

And yet, GOD! I always knew HE was real, but it wasn’t until the 6th day of being in the hospital with you that HE personally showed me WHO HE was! It was on that day that I realized you my son had been designated as my personal angel! Your purpose on this earth…your life in the end glorified GOD on the highest level…it BROUGHT your family to CHRIST! On the 7th day, my strength was renewed and I stopped being selfish and made the hardest decision and allowed you to go back home! Your work here was done!

Now on this May 4, 2013…20yrs old!! Wow! I know you are in heaven watching Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles (heavens edition)…cutting flips, and playing (Im)mortal Combat…yea (character) Sonjia still sucks lol! Keep praying for us, and watching over us! And know that the 4years I had you can never be replaced!

P.S. (wink) tell the FATHER thank you for CHRISTIAN..he just like his uncle!
Love Mom!


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Posted by on May 4, 2013 in 2013, child, christopher, DEATH, God, young



I’m still in shock over the passing of Whitney Houston. But like when ppl pass away, it usually brings reflection to those who have been affected in some way. As I look over my life, I think about what’s important, and remind myself that all that other stuff, is not worth being a part of my remembered legacy. No matter how many people know your name, you will leave some type of ”legacy” behind, let it be one of kindness, greatness (because you became who God created you to be), one of no regrets, forgiveness daily, LOVE shown at every level, being just in all things. Dealing with every decision that you have made in a mature manner, blaming no one but yourself. Also be quick to ask for forgiveness as well. And pray for one another daily! You don’t have to know someone personally to just pray for them. The Holy Spirit will give you the words to say. Now as much as we all enjoy the gifts that God gives us, in people like Whitney, MJ, and others, we must know that they need prayer just like anyone else. Why? Because the industry they are in, is designed to destroy them SPIRITUALLY. And we all know that it’s the spirit that the enemy is after. Isn’t it funny that our GREATEST musicians have bouts with things that are designed to kill them first mentally, then spiritually, then physically? See, we all know that greatness comes with and adversary. The enemy (Satan) already knows his fate, and he wants to take as many people with him. Remember misery loves company. Don’t ever underestimate your adversary, heck he got Adam & Eve to give him the keys to the kingdom, but we have a Savior, and His name is Jesus, and He has delivered us from the hands of the enemy. Don’t be deceived, because you see these people living a lifestyle that most only dream of, or the fact that the whole world knows there name, there are held accountable even more so, for what type of influence they are presenting. The enemy of their souls know that. See if you love Nicki Minaj, you would be praying for her constantly (her grammy performance alone should have you praying), Lady Gaga, Jay Z, or whomever your favorite is. Because when they are gone, that’s it. Screaming over their dead body, how much you love them, can’t save their soul. Stop acting like the things we see are okay, or just acting, or performing, everything expressed on the outside is an expression of what’s going on in the inside. Don’t ever get that twisted, it’s the one thing the devil want’s you to overlook. Ah that former minister of music (Lucifer) has a lot to do with that. Be slow to judge and quick to pray!



Pastor Marvin Sapp, continues to deliver spirit-stirring music. It’s that music that you know came from a place of experience…his testimony. His new single: MY TESTIMONY, delivers the same type of spirit-changing anointing that can only deliver those who understand that they have made it through the storms in their lives. After losing his lovely wife Malinda, Marvin Sapp offers hope to everyone that no matter the situation, you can make it through. God is good. Today I want to say to you, if you are reading this, then the devil did NOT WIN! You are STILL HERE! We have all been through some storms this year, and some of us believe everytime we turn around, something is going on. But I’m here to tell you, although you can’t see a way out when you are in the storm/situation/battle etc. know that there is light at the end of the tunnel. It’s is God’s will that HIS plan for your life be manifested. The only way it can be done though is if YOU SUBMIT yourself to HIS WILL, and REFUSE to give up until you SEE what GOD HAS SAID. I have constantly told you guys about the miracles that God has done in my life, well I know now that those things didn’t manifest without a fight from the adversary. It’s like anytime I get a word of blessing coming, I would be in the fight of my life just to keep the faith! But it’s one thing I will say: I had to, no matter what, always remind myself that God’s Word is true, and anything I heard (whether in my mind, or other people) that was NOT in agreeance with God’s Word, I struck from my spirit, giving it NO PLACE to take root in me. Now I’m here to tell you that’s not always easy, but we must make up our mind and our hearts that only what God says, will take root, in us, that we may produce what HE CONSIDERS GOOD FRUIT. No matter what the enemy throws at you, STAND! Know that as long as you don’t give up, you don’t give in, YOU WILL BE STILL HERE, and you will SEE WHAT GOD HAS SAID. -MARGO

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